What Happened

Why dammit?
What happened anyway? Boredom? Regret? Shame? Guilt?
What about friendship? A easy release? Being the superior beast?
I keep saying to myself... you'll return someday. it'll be like it was and nothing in between. It could be you know; or if you dont like that we can do it your way. And if your way is no way... so be it. Just ... please ... dont flush me away like the turd i am.

Gud Dammit

So like life really sucks at this time.
I get this need to unpurposefully rhyme
as though someone would open their mind.
Though I wish some were blind. That I wouldnt mind mind; then maybe I'd for once more be a find.
Thought it would all be swell. Me an him doing well.
But then I'd occasionally realize just how badly it all did smell.
From a distance I hear his scent. A life that could have meant. Fuck it what nights we'd spent. Now everything's bent and my life's up for rent. 'scuse me while I vent.
Venture through nothingness... pointless abyss.. what could be the meaning of all this.
Its just me and the music. Banchees hear my cries. But to my expected surprise, nothing to be realized.
A light at the end? No.